don't burst my tears again...

wazup...
yesterday i ad type a post...
but damn god..
i cannot post it
coz the damn ****ing compuer...
yesterday i wasn't moody...
well...
got a little larr...
but at the end...
stupid computer and family burst my happpy mood...
and turn it into tears...

我很容易哭


我也不知道为什么

我每天每秒都好想哭

但是

我不能每秒都那么坚强。。

我想

我没有资格做cool tomboy

我

只是一个crybaby

每天只会哭

哭哭哭

是我发泄的好方法

对我来说

有些事情

哭过了

就算了

但是不是每一样都能。。

我不想再哭了。。。

但我能吗？
 
i have friends...
friends that are back-stabbers..
friends that couldnt be trust...
friends that are avoiding me..
friends that think that i'm invisible..
friends that even insult me....
but..
i couldnt always want them to treat me good...
but i didn't
they treat me bad..
but i still care about them....
i don't care what they said about me...
but...
i can't resist anymore...
it's time to stop
stop all those bad and horrible things and
THINK
 
even my best and greatest friends have secrets behind my back..
i told her everything..
but..
i think i was just talking to myself...
 
what's it like to be lonely...
uncomfortable...
sad..
moody..
its terrible..
 
我不是没前途


但是

我为什么要证明给你看

老师每次说

7个A 不是给老师或家长看

是给自己看

但。。

我不想看。。。

我只要努力

就够了。。。

就算了。。。

就走了。。。



我已经不是你们认识的cool tomboy

我已经没有资格做cool tomboy


你

每天都在批评我。。。

从头到脚都在批评

现在

连衣服也好批评

你知道吗？

我受够了

我不要听了

你是的妈妈

你连爱都不给。。。

反而一天到晚都在骂我。。。

我知道。。

我拿了2个A

你都不骂我。。

对。。

你很＂好＂

好到我都不动要怎么感谢你！！

 
i always think
just a few more months
then can start over
happy happy again...
but..
the problem is i cannot let it all go...
its not like the sand can be blewn away by wind in my hands..
its like rocks...
heavy rocks...
 
i have no more excuse to be a  cooltomboy anymore...
i have nothing in life....
i have only BlacK
i don't have any WhitE...
 
i can fall....
but i can't stand back up...
i need someone to help me..
but i somehow don't let someone to help...
i'm just somebody..
no..
i'm just nobody...
why am i a nobody..
how should i know...
 
i cried last night..
i cried this morning...
i cried in my heart everyday...
i can't stop those wicked tears anymore...
i cried because i was sad..
i cried because i was happy..
i cried because i was useless...
i cried because i was lonely....
 
i had enough with other people judging me...
so what...
yes..
i am sensitive..
yes..
i am useless..
yes..
i am stupid...
but did i ever even 得罪 you??
ornot why u all keep judging me??
 
stop ady..
no more typing..
i'm falling again..
and i don't want to stand up...
i'm not cool tomboy anymore.....

waste all my time..

wazup..
haizz..
today very waste...
all my precious time
haizz...
let me tell you..

today..
about a month ago..
Di..
[its dad.. i call him di coz its da-di.. get it?]
Di plan to bring us to IEM geh Family Day..
the first thing on my mind was....
BO--RING!!
but we still need go
Di want to do blood donation...
haizz....

but..
i found out that that day was the day booyee's bufday party
i was like
wth
but i thought that okay lor..
rush abit..
coz the family day end at 1 pm sumting...
maybe i can be there on time..
but...
[another but..]
turn out...
i need go visit my granma..
neh..
yesterday i tell you jorr..
my granma sick
actually not only i go there to visit my granma....
i gt a relative...
dunno is my relative or what..
its my mom d dad [my granpa] d younger brother....
so its my 'shu gong'
maybe...
coz my mom call him 'shu shu'
he from China..
our whole family nobody know him except Gong gong [granpa]
but Ma say maybe gong gong also forget him..
gong gong ad 90++ years old..
Ma say 'shu gong' maybe 70++ years old...

i heard my 'mother-side-aunties' said 'shu gong' come with his friend..
actually is his son d friend..
the friend come malaysia do business..
yesterday when i go visit popo [granma]
i saw a photo of a granpa and all the family memberz...
i guess the granpa is my 'shu gong'
i think 'shu gong' looks abit like gong gong..
but nobody agree with me..
they all say
"where got!!"
= =

back to the real story..
so..
i go to ther nt only visit my popo..
Di and Ma also want bring 'shu gong' to Putrajaya..
since he come from China and first time come KL..
yesterday my 3rd uncle bring him to Genting...
but now..
my aunty say no need go there ad coz my 3rd uncle ad bring 'shu gong' to Putrajaya...
they say 'shu gong' want find a relative in Subang jaya...
then cz 3rd uncle know marr..
then bring 'shu gong' lor..
thats why...
i no need go to gong gong house anymore...
plus..
i cannot go to boo yee's house..
i'm so piss becoz of this...
wtfffffffffff

actually i can go one..
then i will reach there about 2 sumting
but..
paiseh paiseh....
haizzz

tongith still gt the weekly dinner at gong gong's house....
wakaka
can play iPhone...
maybe
but still need to help cook..
did i tell you i always help my big aunt to cook???
hehe..
but i also not very good larr...
i always scare when i cook the food will burn...
= ="
at home also..
my favourite dih
maggi mee and fried rice..
[coz i only know how to cook that..]
wakakaka....
then tonight we're having dinner with 'shu gong'
and he's leacing tomoro...
12 am sharp...
wth..
i only get to see him for a few hours...
haizz...

i'm getting sore-throat today..
no matter how much water i drink..
still cannot heal..
haizz..
today i @ the family day there eat a lot ice kacang~~
i looove ice kacang~~~~
love until let Ma scold..
haizz...

i duwan type ad..
my movie awaits~
bye~~~

sucking day...

wazup...
today was suckingly suckful....
haha
what a good vocabulary...
= =

i just woke up from a horrible dream..
i forget what happen..
but i just remember that is was awful....
then i watch tv and eat nasi lemak...
[every week eat nasi lemak sienn ad loh..]
then i do the thing i hate the most...
wash shoes..
my mum siao ad..
from start she just scold
and scold and scold and scold and scold and scold....
then me and Liang just do and do and do and do all the chores...
haizz..
so damn moody just from the start...

then...
go d tuuting piano class larr.....
wow..
i actually dream at class...
about 10 seconds...
coz i suddenly heard teacher callling my name...
i was like
*HUH?!*

after that..
i go granma house...
neh..
i said before about the weekly dinner mar..
but today not dinner
my granma sick
haizz...
damn worried..
i scared i will lose someone i love again...
just like when i lose my another granma....
*sob*
choi choi choi
never
we visit her today
she at least better...
yesterday she at hospital check...
on the way home
i ask mom....
about all the things about granma and granpa....
haizz.....

when come home ad 7 sumting...
i go watch tv...
wakaka....
dad ad reach home earlier than us about 10 minutes...
then we go out eat dinner...
i say i want go eat somewhere near or go eat "ban mian"
they say okok...
but then they change their mind say want go eat what dim sum
i was like pissed up
i hate dim sum
blekkkk
not hate lar...
i just won't suggest eating dim sum whenever....
i hate dim sum!!!!
chill...
i mean
who eats dim sum at night?
i won't eat it in day also
then i just sulk all the way eating dim sum
actually
i didnt eat dim sum
i eat wanton mee....
i dun think the mee very special
ntg special
just more expensive
one thing for sure
I HATE DIM SUM!!

suck...
suck..
suck.....
i dunno lar...

i tear the paper ad...
i whip my tears ad..
i stand up ad..
i know...
i'm not the tomboy who's still dreaming about relationships and future..
i'm the tomboy who will work hard and bersungguh-sungguh on everything
i don't care about admiring you, ***
i don't care about facing you, xxx
i don't care about what ever stupid rumours that you are gonna tell everyone, N
i just know
i'm stilll
ME

well
you offline ad..
nobody to chat....
wakaka
nice chatting with you..
so..
now watch anime...
buh bye...

i mooooooodyy......

wazup..
i'm so damn sot ad..
not the 'good' sot but is 'bad' sot.....
wtf...
so...
i;m gonna tell  you...

Monday,
wow...
i was so damn siao.....
very mooooody.....
M came to me...
she told me everything...
i felt...
so damn sorry for here...
i wish to help but what can i do...
dunno when...
but i know during free time lar...
i was so damn moody and boring
so i play with Scott 15, 20 lose then Truth or Dare...
suddenly i really no mood play ad...
i sot sot tell Scott..
"u slap me in te face lar.. i duwan play ad"
coz i know Scott will not let me go of that easily....
then he slap lo...
quite hard....
@ nite....
i was so damn stress...
and then i finallly..../
let those tears come out like seas.....
nobody in the hell of this house knew.....

Tuesday,
i came @ school....
still mooody....
didnt want to force a smile...
a smile to me is like a cut in the heart....
i managed to write to Xuen....
i need to tell her...
then she simply ask..
who is ***..
i just..
swt....
then M came again...
she say..
she keep say..
and i listen..
keep feel sorry....
haizz.....

Wednesday....
if i didnt remember wrong...
that day should be nothing happen.....
dunno lar....

Thursday..
M cannot tahan ad..
then burst out...
so..
about the whole class knew what happen...
and everybody is like talking all about it...
i tried to comfort M....
and then i saw the letter...
i dunwan to rmb what about it...
coz it makes me feel angry...
thank God...
i didnt rmb it....
then when recess...
me and JoeYi keep comfort M for awhile when we saw her....
and guess what?
you all came and ask me about her....
when i replied the answer u dunwan to know..
you all like
cheh....
then go away....
after recess....
u all come to me and say M's next target is me.....
why?
what?
who?
what do you all know...
haizz...
then i was again mooody...

Friday, [today]
i cannot tahan..
i scold them one sentence.....
i cannot say...
i duwan say....
haizzz....
but that sentence not very serios or sumting larr...
i just meant that don't disturb M ad...
when time to go home....
M came to me...
she say the problem d 20% is done...
so i said thats great..
but it seems like she only cares about the 80%
coz thats what the real problems....

dunno which day..
i found out that N lie to me...
N tell a lot ppl ad..
i can't believe it...
i know N for so long
i can't believe N will lie to me
N betrayed me...
i still can't believe it...
arghhhhhhhhhhhh..
actually not lie
is just tell my secret out
but thank godness...
its not real...
wait...
if its not real..
its not call secret...
haizz!!!
well it is a secret...
but its not real anymore!!

i feel like writing chinese....
then i feel like don't writing it
then when i want to write it
the web page jam ad...
so i don't care.
i change to youtube..
watch movie to relax for awhile loh...

i so piss up when i saw somebody copmment my blog with the name 'weikang'
tell you what
i'm not happy to see his name on my blog if that guy wasnt that guy
confused?
i rather say tuut
i wanna tuut her tuut there ad..
but i'm at home
no tuutz allowed...

how i wish u were online
then i can tell you everything that i want to say.....
becoz i know...
you are the only one i could trust.....

dunno what to write
[actually i know]
but i wanna see movie ad....
haizz...
bye....

i hate examz...

wazup...
tomorrow exam ad....
lazy leh...
duwan study..
but have to..
haizzz....
i only study abit only.....
dun care.....
blek XP

i don't care it if u keep complaining about me
i don't care if u wanna insult me...
i don't care if u hate me....
i just don't care...
why??
becoz that's me...
u cannot change who i am...
u don't have the qualifications to judge me...
u don't deserve to judge me!!
u don't need to judge me....
if u keep want to judge me then fine
but think again
i'm at least better than you!!

i'm happy to see that you're happpy
i don't feel sad if i cannot have you
i don't feel hurt
it's your choice...
altough u havent say your answer...
i still will respect it...
becoz i know...
its not me...
smart leh..
= =

2mr....
need see you again....
can i don't?
2mr...
need exam again..
can i don't?
2mr...
need face all those challenges again...
can i don't?
do i have a choice...
i don't think so....
fine.....

sometimes...
i just hate attending the weekly dinner at my granpa's house....
coz i don't get the way people treat me...
all those cousins...
they only treat Liang and my baby cousin sister good...
i'm not invisible...
kayzz??
i'm not heartless...
kayzz??
i have feelings..
you know??
starting from age of  7..
[coz i only rmb that]
my 2nd big cousin bro doesn't even talks to me...
okay..
well sometimes...
he only says..
"paas the remote"
or
"drink your soup"
....
[speechless]
then theres my biggest cousin bro...
well he's better...
he talks to me sometimes..
i don't think 'talk' is the word..
i prefer tease...
he teases me....
he now smokes all the time and i don't think anyone knows this....
didnt he know that all of us cares about him..
ha!
like he cares...
he doesnt even have dinner with us anymore...
"so" good...
then there's my 3rd big d cousin brother....
he's about 15 or sumting right now...
15 or 16 or 17 or 18...
i dunno
i just know he still studying....
what's great about him
at least he talks....
ha!
and at last theres my big cousin sister...
well...
she talks a litttle little little...
i happy ad if she lends me her iPhone to play.....
wakaka....
now...
big couz'n bro, 2nd couz'n bro and big couz'n sis ad go pub or clubs ad....
the whole family are damn worried...
but what can we do?
i see al my baby photos...
when i baby...
its like everybody loves me and sayangz me...
then now...
i'm like
"cooltomboy --- the invisible cousin that didnt exist"
haizz...
i don't care ady lar....
i can only sms sometimes at there
or watch tv if no one wants to fight the tv with me
or play iPhone...

so now what..
i decided to....
do nothing
no lar....
just find something to be addiceted
or maybe go visit blogz...
see ya...

==?

wow!!
wazup...
today when i see my blog..
dunno why the number suddenly when up to 103~~
yeah!!!
thanks to evrybody and YOU!!

haizz...
today JoeYi didnt teman me...
she go competition...
GAMBATEH~!!
wakaka....
today also got ko-ko
wah.......
dunno why a little bit siennnzz....
no larr...
everyday also sienzzz....
at least i gt talk to you today....
right??
^^

boo...
nobody to chat today....
so?
nothing to do..
not like yesterday...
chat like siao......
wakaka...
so now what??

i'm simply thinking about things.......
haizz.....
don't think ady,
stupid brain....

still no sign of Guest and Bypasser...
if you two don't dare to comment...
then it's okay..
just visit....

wth...
dunno what the heck the stupid website...
i download it ad...
but still cannot....
phuck!!
haizz....
@ school ask xuen lor.....

tomoro....
need study and do homework ad...
you do finish ad marr??
i'm asking u if you are in 6K
.....
so damn hard....
"da ri tian"
what the tuuting question is that???
haizzz....
duwan type ad...
so..
buhbye..

peace out
-CoolTomboy =P

wakakaaa... [siao]

wazup wazup....
knda busy busy...
but still need write my precious blog~
wakaka

@ school...
sienn lo......
haizz.....
but at least can see ***.....
lol....
ntg special about him....

haizz....
my blog got ppl come....
but only Will comment.....
guest and bypasser....
you two really want to leave??/
sobz...

i can't believe i havent study for the next exam...
haizz....
i don't care..........
no 7A then no 7A la.....
its not like i can hav ganjaran or wat...

juz now...
i'm not sure...
what's about this??
xxx....
haizzz.....
i still can't believe i'm so sensitive about him...
yalor....
"thanks" to you!!!
make me think of xxx.....
haizzz.....

wei...
u tell me d thingz i will be very guai d...
i wouldnt say like u when u say me
but really very sweet,....
wakaka.......
thanks for tellinng me......
><
u so good tell me....
i dunno should i tell you mine...
haizz....

dunno know do what...
keep chatting.....
lolz....
xD
bye~

huh?? @.@

wazup...
hey guys...
bypasser and guest..
can chill marr???
u two very funny...
but feel touched coz gt ppl care about me....
thnx.....

bypasser.....
thanks alot....
actually.....
your words very pro.....
really....
nobody ever care about my life, my family, my friendz.. my wicked piano except you......
you are really a good 'blog visitor' friend to me.......
i don't feel bothered or wateva....
i just only wanna know who are you...
if u duwan say...
its just cool....
coz i ad happy gt ppl come my blog
so chill....
you can come and go anytime...
i wouldnt paksa you....

guest.....
yea, bypasser right.......
you're kinda sensitive.....
but same also chill.....
coz its no biggy......
kay??

wow....
1st time my blog gt this type of thingz happen......
cool??
dunno......

well....
today i sleep..zzzz
until dad wake me....
he say
"Girll!!! wake up yar... mom wanna bring you go pasar.. u say u want buy new slipperz!"
oh man....
damn duwan to wake up...
i just luv sleeping.......
my slippers loh........
my slippers always let Ma wear....
then she wear until spoil ady......
my slipperszz....
*sobz*
then before i go IOI find also don't have good one...
today go pasar....
thee uncla say didnt have my size...
he say no stock....
shit
then Ma bring me go Giant...

before we left....
i saw a car....
INOVA.....
and when i saw the car d plat....
omg...
its his car....
xxx.....
ahh.....
then when i get into Ma d car....
i didnt talk ad.....
i just sit at there......
speechless....
mooody the whole day ad.....
wow.....

@ Giant....
go a lot of slippers....
really...
alot!!!!!
then finally buy ad...
actually i not so like the slippers...
but nvm larr......
don't like also need wear....
better than 'kaki ayam'
lol....

so now what???
me and Liang only @ home....
good.....
i can shout i can scream i can cry i can crazy.....
like that....
Liang also will do the same......
@.@
peace out

-CoolTomboy

thanks for everything.. ^^

i lov rain... but not today...

What's up....
today is so complicated.....
well....
i'm so not cool when i need to go ko-ko.....
the teacher lar....
ok fine...
i admit i was looking at the outside d scenery for a few minutes.... [before]
but that time i was adjusting my stupid window....
the glass can come out marr....
so in case then i adjust it for awhile lor.....
wth....
then....
on recess.....
wahh.....
so many people "gao bai"..
altough we were crazy about it...
but i think not nice..
coz they also let ppl paksa then say mar...
not so good....
[BOOO!!]

haizz.....
bypasser....
.why ur questions so hard......
like very pro like that..
dunno how to answer you....
please tell me who are you??
haizz....

when i came back from Darren's house....
i say raindrops.....
omg...
i duwan to rain...
why rain????/
i wanna go to park with JoeYi!!!
we 2 long time no go adi.....
now...
RAIN!!!
haizz....
15 minutes ago....
i call guohao....
i asked him he at JiSean d house adi anot....
he say havent......
haizz.....
then i said when he reach at the house call me coz i want talk to JiSean.....
then he was like ok.....
now 6:30 ady..
he no way havent reach....
i think he heard wrong until say i want call him...
haizzz.....
fine.....
just hope the boyz wouldnt come my house and kacau me......
pray pray lar........
just now..
Liang said
" 'JIE!!!' no more rain ady..."
i was like huh? huh?
@.@
then i go out...
really no rain worr....
but it was late ady...
i cannot go with JoeYi..
so don't go...
haizz......

damn moody right now......
when i moody...
i simply think of things...
then...
i become depressed....
and more moodier....
haizz....
who cares.....

finding something to do @ online./......
haizz.....
peace out

-CoolTomboy

SPAIN!!!

wazup.......
YEA!!!
spain win!!!
in your face....
danny, kaiyin, jhee fung, munyi, khai ng, puisan, ian..... (etc)
wohooooo
spain is in d fianlz!!
wakakakakaka...........
= =

our class went so wild after the match....
Germany vs Spain...
germany suckxx!!!!
boo.....
hong ray, scott, darren, tze wei, mun and me gone crazy~
[of course.. that chong yuan sing oso.. but i don't think he really gt see.. xP]
we keep screaming" germany suckxxx!!!"
wakaka....

don't say that ad....
today actually wanna type all chinese about sumting...
nvm larr.....
now keep upload photos.....
i scared not much time...

stupid low tze wei..
keep make my mushroom messy
= =
my beloved mushroom....
tmr pay back...
today when wanna go home from home....
he make my mushroom again...
i want make him but i need go ady...
then..
JoeYi come and beat tze wei d head!!!
hahahaha!!!
stupid tze wei...
not so easy defeat us geh...

tomorow....
pay back....
waakakaka....
and..
tomoro JoeYi go to park with me.....
wakaka....
have fun!!

bye..
peace out
-CoolTomboy

PartY-NervouSS??

wazup..
i online early today.....
now is 12 pm sumting....
coz....

afterwad 1pm go Amanda's party~
Amanda~~~
miss you miss you~~
long time no see ad.....
i'm a little excited to see Amanda.....
actually i heard about the party on friday...
then i was like...
dunno amanda still remember me anot....
then that night 10 pm sumting....
sumbody call me...
when i heard her voice i thought it was PeiHer....
then she says she is amanda....
i was like....
OMG..........
then she invited me to her party......

yesterday i saw her blog...
well...
she long time havent update...
= =
dunno now d amanda how....
still like last time marr??
cheerful, happy-go-lucky....
i hope so....

i dunno why..
i think i'm nervous or what??
i ad prepare on 11 pm....
so early...
well...
sometimes i get nervous b4 parties....
SUMTIMES.....

i guess nothing to type ad coz today too early.....
wait!!
forgot tell you
i suddenly like korean singers....
2NE1..
super junior....
ss501.....
RAIN....
etc......
they're song quite nice.....
wakaka...
thanks to Karen...
i'm addicted............

well....
no more....
i will remember to post the pictures on amanda's party...
on facebook....
pity u Will...
buh-bye..
PEACE!!!
and gimme sum idea to edit my blog~.....
-CoolTomboy

*.*

wazup..
2nd post of the day..
woohoo...
i know i jarang post two time a day with not same time...
coz......
thanks for me being moody and sulking around at home,..
i gt 20 minutes for free~
so i gt to be fast....
wakaka

feel happy and a little rush right now....
happy coz my counter d number is getting higher and higher....
wakaka...
rush..
i think i no need tell you....

remember what i said about the old-neighbours party??
wow..
it sucks....
okok lar...
no offense, kay?
well...
there was just 3 lauk-pauk with their malay rice..
[i dunno wth it is, but its not white rice]
and all three are hot..
damn spicy...
and then there's laksa...
at least the laksa not so spicy..
but the truth..
when u gonna finish it..
it gets so spicy..
why??/
the house was sooo pretty!!
its so big..
but its not a bungalow.....
its actually not big..
long...
i think so..
and its so nice...

okay..
i actually want use this 20 minutes to edit my blog...
so bye..
peace!!
-CoolTomboy

@.@

wazup..
today..
is going to be dfamn busy..

this morning....
was so damn 'liang'
dunno why my new-stupid-damn-alarm clack wake me up @ 5.45 am....
wakaka....
damn bising..
then i open my eyes and snooze it...
then i look around, scratch my head for awhile and then back to sleep...

then..
wake up at 9 sumting..
dunno why today so early wakeup...
so i grab a Snoopy Comic book near me and read it for awhile...
then go watch tv..
when i go down..
mom said
"warhh.... today so early geh??"
i say...
"dunno larr"
then she said dad just came back..
he ady buy a few nasi lemak for us...
i go eat then mom said...
"remember wash shoes yahh"
[speechless]
"why ME???"

haizz....
i hate washing shoes....
but nvm lar...
but..
also need wash my brother one....
wth....

no lunch..
then go to stupid-piano class.....
boring..........
then Liang brought me to Mc.donald where Mom is waitnig for us......
she say Liang & me go Popular first and buy a present she saw for Amanda......
then again...
we run back to Popular....

@ Popular...
i saw hong lao shi..
6H class d science teacher....
= ="'
i keep finding the present..
then finally i found it....
it was just where i started looking for it d place...
xD
= =

and yes...
finally...
we can go eat Tutti Frutti!!!!
of course i belanja myself like i said yesterday..
my one just RM 9.01
which is just 9....
nice, man~~~

then go back home and now writing blog.....

afterwad....
i need go my old neighbour d new house d party.......
btw, my old neighbour is Malay...
so it will be juz like the parties last time in their old house...
all malayz....
very scary when all the malay kid look @ us...
ahh...
then they are like
"siapa ni?? kenapa ada orang cina... mesti dah silap kan??"
they keep asking my neighbour..[the kid..]
then the kid said
"taklah.. dia jiran saya...."
mesti like that one...
haizz.....

mom said....
if the party d food nice....
we eat it as dinner...
early-dinner coz that time should be about 5 pm.....
wakaka
then mom said if still hungry can go mamak or go old town
yea~

today..
should not be moody lar...
still not bad lo....
i was very happy when i saw my blog d counter...
yesterday 23 ppl..
today 34 ppl...
good!!!
"jia you!!"
ok la...
don't write ad....
buh bye...
peace!!

-CoolTomboy =P

O.o

wazup..
love my blog marr??
new blogskinz leh..
so cool~~
wakaka...
[siao]

haizzz...
i dunno why...
but still sad...
a little moody...

Xuenli ask before me...
why everytime i write blog say until so sad..
but at school so damn happy..
well...
the answer is:
i'm happy @ school coz i duwan always think about all those problems... i need to chill sometimes...
i get damn moody @ home coz i sometimes very free and keep thinking about those problems....
so for now..
u know the answerzz...

i am so desperate...
actually i dunno what the word d meaning..
= =""
haizz...
i am damn freakin' kelian.....
why..
tell me why
why must i be the one who nobody cares about.....
i'm not somebody..
i'm not even nobody...
i'm....
....
yea..
i'm dot dot dot....
...
= ="

***....
i saw you..
5 days a week....
6 to 9 hours a day...
but why..
why i don't have the courage to tell you...
i decide that..
i'm gonna tell you..
when?
wakaka
cannot say....
but...
you need promise me....
you cannot tell anybody...
i saw her keep looking at you.....
but..
i don't care...
coz i know you.....
= =
dunno what the heck am i typing.....
why??
coz i dunno what to type...

today d oral..
yes!!
our group alll gt A+!!
and Mdm Lau said maybe we could do wateva recording..
i also dunno what she said...
but who cares..
as long as i gt an A
thats enough...
all our hardwork and four of us d angriness...
at least didnt sia-sia....
^^

Tomorrow...
can eat Tutti Frutti~
totally addicted to it...
its just sooo nice...
Frozen Yogurt...
wakaka...
where i gt the money to buy it??
the money that come from the 奖励金..
the 奖励金..
very cheap only...
RM60...
i thought very high..
but who know...
but better than don't have lorr
hehe....
i belanja myself..

actually i was thinking about saving up for a handphone...
u dunno meh??
ok i tell you..
wait..
i think i tell you before..
aiya, same same d lar...
my mom said before...
i can get my handphone at the age of 18..
i know..
siao right!!??
but what can i do??
she says..
if i get 7 A..
at least i can get handphone at 15....
wth...
so i thought of saving for hanphone...
then mom said...
even if i saved enough money...
i still cannot buy....
i know..
ridiculous!!
but.. this is more siao..
she said...
when i'm 18..
she'll give me a buget..
if the handphone i want is more than the buget..
i giv the rest by using MY money...
wth??!!!
i can't believe she's MY mom...
and i want MY handphone!!!!
i'm sick of not-using handphone!!!
i want one!!!!

siao ady...
haizz...
what to do now??
go see other people geh blog lorr....
haizz....
so..
keep visit my blog ar....
i hope the number will rise
higher..
higher...
HIGHER!!!
siao...

-CoolTomboy =P