last day of old me..

What's up dudes...
today is the last day i be the old identity..
thnx to the party at Redbox..
i feel happy..
but the happiness is only at there..
when i was away from my friends..
back to my moody life..
haizz...
at least i could be happy on my last day of "old identity"

during party..
was awesome..
we sing like crazy..
we eat like crazy..
[no lar..]
but he had fun..
i think none of them know that it was the last day of "happy ol' me"
haizz..
at least i got a new hobby..
singing..
maybe..
but i'm not sure...
before the party..
i sing only when i hear my MP3 in my room alone..
i always kept my voice soft..
i wouldn't want anybody to know that i could sing [terribly]
but this time..
no more "singing alone"
i get to sing using microphone..
it may be normal to you all..
but it's the first time of me..
i feel quite free in there..
and of course sikit sikit cold..
brrr....
no lar...

i think of my past..
people say that i am cheerful and happy-go-lucky..
but then..
when i think again..
am i?
i'm just a loser living with a none-caring family...
well..
not exactly none-caring..
but something like that..
it's hard to explain..
sometimes..
i feel like i didnt even exist in this world..
no body cares about me..
if they did, sometimes its fake..
pity me lar..
do u know how poor am i???

i dream the dreams that will never be ture..
i wish somthing that will never be true..
every fairytale has a happy ending..
but,
when is mine??

whenever i saw XXX..
i hide..
whenever he sees me..
i blush...
but why???
they say coz i like him.
but u think i wanna like him??
u think i duwanna forget him???

i saw many people having good lifes..
and of course..
i am a little envy them..
i am thinking..
how can't i have the good life of them??

things are about to change after tomorrow..
so better watch out..
haizz..
i feel like typing for only me to see..
nobody comes to my blog..
haizzz..
i cannot online for nex week..
gonna damn miss my blog..
[muackzz]
bye dear blog..
peace out

-CoolTomboy=P
5:53pm
28/02

i'm so damn quiet..

hey wazup..
such a damn day today..
i'm now should be how i am..
the 'new' identity..
but when i at msn..
i still say alot..
lolz..
"be tahan" mar..
still need changing..
haizz..
wat can do??

2moro is the day..
the last day for me to change..
become somebody..
and,
tomoro oso go KaiYin d party @ redbox..
i dunno why i so damn nervous..
mayb coz is d 1st time i go there..
so damn nervous lo..
dunno wat will happen..
of course i will bring my "out-dated" camera..
[not mine actually]
and will be a crazy photographer..
[that is the greatest part---take picture whole day!!]
not whole day la..
juz for 3 hours..

haizz..
i dunno why my damn cool blog so quiet...
dunno the damn GUEST mati ad anot..
need full support my blog if can!!!
always see!!
my blog is the best!!!

peace out...

-CoolTomboy =P
5:37pm
27/02

get the **** outta my life!!!

i don't who you are!!
i don't wanna know who are you!!
you think you hide your identity and its fun??
you think just one stupid name and you are "soo" mysterious??
well..
go get you fking brain have a brain wash!!
don't think you are mysterious and i will keep think "who is the GUEST?"
well..
keep dreaming on it!!
i don't care who the hell you are..
but don't challenge me..
you pissed me up coz i'm in a bad mood!!
and u wil pay for it!!
if i know you..
you will be chop into pieces just like butter!!
i think i'm sure that i could be the other identity..
every day bad mood..
maybe i could start right now!!
but i don't want to..
i'll start during monday..
watch out for me!!
cool tomboy aka bad mood..
actually it isn't just only that fking GUEST's fault..
i've already sick of this stupid life!!
everybody is so damn fake..
nobody is real..
even if you are..
then sorry i say at you..
even if i had a bad mood..
i will still treat you good sometimes...
see who you are lo..
if u had a good impression in my brain..
then i will treat you better...
tonight cannot online..
damn angry..
haizz..
fine loh..
bad mood & peace out...

-CoolTomboy=P
5:47pm
26/02

我。。
应该做的事。。
还没做完。。
我。。
不知道应不应该做。。
你们知道我要做什么吗？
我要有一个新的身份。。以前的身份是：开开心心；每天都笑；开朗；很爱说话等。。新的身份是：冷漠；不爱说话等。。
可是。。我能变到这样吗？

i wanna change becoz..
i think my "happy go lucky" style makes me feel..
not like a tomboy..
and if i cannot be a tomboy..
i can't even be a cool tomboy..
this suckx....

that day.. (tuesday)
i was so damn nervous of the exam..
i only last minute read...
i was so damn crazy that time..
but then..
i remember i gt a thing to make me feel better...
i pick up the phone and dialled to Joey's house..
after a little chat..
i feel better...
then i found out..
i can't live without friends..


i gtg..
juz now chat with 2 friends..
lol..
gotta peace out..

-CoolTomboy =P
11:10pm
Thursday, 25/2

i dunno why..

我不知道为什么。。
我一直观察你。。
我不知道为什么。。
我一直看你。。
我不知道为什么。。
我一直了解你。。
我很像越来越不怕你。。
以前。。
我都是躲避你。。
现在。。
我不躲了。。
之从我们［不能说］后。。
我开始注意你了。。
我不知道。。
我有没有喜欢你。。
可是放心。。
我会死心的。。

damn miss my beloved blog~

What's up people!!
the tomboy is in the house..
thnx for still visiting my blog until now..
arigatou..
xie xie..
terima kasih..
to jie sai..
gracias..
(play play only.. hope don't mind)
haizz...

我偏不要和他有缘。。
可是神又偏偏要给我和他有缘。。
也不是说＂缘分＂啦。。
是。。
很像每次都看到XXX。。
可是。。
最近很像很少看见他了。。
不知道应该要开心还是伤心。。
开心：因为我不用看见他了。。
伤心：因为有点不习惯。。

next post~

my face is missing.. not missing, hiding..

damn it..
where in the damn world is my face??
i gt no face to go school see people ad..
all is penipu, or not is XXX..
or not is all the ppl who say me like him..
arghhh!!!
wait, i think i found my face..
lolxx..
kidding..
it's still hiding..
haizz..
why all this damn people cannot shut up wan..
always say me..
nobody to say meh??
now i'm really pissed up..
gtg..

peace out (and oso angry..)

-CoolTomboy =P

can i keep on moving??

wazup people..
me now stinks..
why??
coz now is 11:11 in the night and i havent bath..
why??
all becoz of my beloved blog~
=3=

there is a problem now..
i don't think i can face all the people who lied to me..
can i keep moving on??
everytime i see their faces..
its like they are gonna cheat me agin if i believe them again..
i'm like..
falling down from the hill..
or falling down from the edge..
being left out from the crowd..
and nobody to..
to..
i dunno how to say..
haizz..
well..
i should be use to this life..
coz that's my new life..
lonwly, useless, shadow, invinsible..
well..
that's me..
gtg..
bath..
lolx..
and some sleep with nightmares..
every night..
peace out..


-CoolTomboy =P

always busy...

wazup people...
i'm so busy lately...
busy until my homework now still haven't do finish..
it's not that i want to be busy..
but there is so many places to go to..
and i can't say no..
haizzz....

remember Y?
one of the person i said before that cheated me 2 or 3 times??
well i gotta ask something..
before i found out Y cheated me..
we agreed to go to her birthday gathering..
and i even bought the presents...
but..
now, since me and Y are having *cold war*(translate into chinese)
can i not go??
then what about my mom..
last time i beg her that i wanna go to the party..
but now,
if i said i duwan to go..
will my mom let me??
she'll mesti say why wan..
how??
haizz....
maybe i should be back frenz with her??
no way man..
if i go there...
i'll be like strangers with her..
haizz...
head-ache...

i don't wan to mention her ad..
what a jerk..
thinking what she had done to me..
i really hate her..
this year,
i hate a lot of people..
haizz...
gtg..
i wanna check my email n go youtube..
even if i gt time..
afterwad still need go out for another dinner..
peace out..



-CoolTomboy =P

2nd zzz....

wazup people..
zzzzzzzzz...
this time not sleep...
is boring until sleep...
dunno what to write lo..
but i know afterwad i'm gonna bath and watch AMERICAN IDOL- (season 9)
damn nice to watch..
but the new judge-- ellen de???? (dunno wat damn name)
very damn lousy..
haizzz..
still damn bornig..
wth..
i can't get the damn XXX out of my damn mind..
haizz...
i admit i still haven't forget XXX..
he is damn unforgetable..
uh-oh..
i gtg..
*total 7 damn..*


bye..

-CoolTomboy =P

zzzzz.....

wazup people..
zzzzz...
blog is now damn quite..
why??
coz nobody come..
gt people come la..
but not the number i expect..
haizz...
must fully support my blog!!~
very boring is it??
but what can do??
i'm a boring person..
zzzzzzz....
just came back from sleep just now..
*yawn*...
so good..
just now sleep in air-cond room..
hehehe..
>.<
anybody can suggest me to go what website listen song..
and dowload song??
pls la...
i need go ad..
bye~


-CoolTomboy =p

long day..

wazup..
today came back from Bkt. Tambun..
long day...
walau..
damn tired..
but stil need to sacrificed for my damn cool blog..
muahahaxx..
lolz..

回到Selangor时， 刚好来到SS2所以去老家看一看
然后又看到我小时候的babysitter---- Aunty Lian Xiang & lao gong Uncle Peacock..
so damn happy!!
已经几年了没见到他们。。
说以前他做饼干时，烫到我的脚。。
妈妈带我看医院。。
我想：有meh？
应该是记错吧。。
进到家里时。。
我感到很。。
感动？
因为。。
他们还收着我小时候的照片。。
他们的女儿还说。。。
他们每次都会讲到我。。
说很想看见我。。
想知道我还好吗。。
糟了。。
我流了泪水。。
我是说现在。。
那时我也有哭。。
不要笑！！
我是太感动了。。。
那时，我真的无法控制我自己。。
真丢脸。。
他们说我小时候很cute。。
很乖的。。
（不要说我自恋，是他们说的）
我每当看见那张照片。。
我都很想哭。。
我现在都流了眼泪。。

我无法想象。。
如果世界上。。
失去了他们。。。
就想失去了家人一样。。
很伤心。。
我一想到这件事。。
我的双眼都红了。。
我知道你们会说。。
＂只不过两个叔叔和阿姨而已吗。。 有什么大不了？＂
但是。。
你们不知道。。
他们是多么疼爱我的。。

i need go wash face ad..
peace out..


-CoolTomboy =P

problems..

whenever i think of XXX..
i can go fb n see his pic..
lolx..
XXX is still cute..
but i will never fall for that..
days of hiding from him is enough..
i need to face on my difficulties..
but can that solve my other problems from forgetting him??
i know it's confusing..
but i cannot just leave the problem there..
even if i wanna solve the problem..
i can't even stop all those gossips that says:"li le ran like XXX"
i don't get it..
why so 38??
why always say me??
go say someone la..
why say about other people??
say yourself la..

main thing is..
who can i really trust now??
my friends say i should give the ones who cheated me a chance..
now i ask you..
should i give them??
Y, one of the people who cheated me..
has cheated me 2 or 3 times..
the 1st time i forgive her..
but then she was more mad..
insane..
omg..
she thinks she is "superwoman" or something...
gossip her gossip there..
walau...
should i give her a chance again??
no way!!!
enough is enough..
she didn't even admit she was wrong..
what a jerk..

haizzz..
i wish someone can save me from this problems better than giving me stupid advise...
*sry*

gtg..


-CoolTomboy =P

finally, something to do...

wazup everyone..
i'm now quite *shuang*
coz can listen songs..
muahahhahahaha..
very nice...
really la..
typing this sambil listen sambil sing...
uh-oh...
relative watching..
cannot sing ad..
want listen me sing??
dream on it..


-CoolTomboy =P

damn freaky boring..

wazup people..
yup..
as usual..
i'm freaky damn boring..
haizz....
at least i can online until i sleep..

Today is the last day i'm sleeping in this house...
then tomorrow, i'm going back to Puchong...
haizzz...
still gt homework, exam, etc etc etc...
haizz...
i'm gonna miss this place..
there is plenty of junk food u can "chow" on..
and u can do whatever u want..
(erm.. not exactly la..)

i wish someone was online now..
i'm not meaning that nobody is online..
but i mean somebody that i could chat with..
haizz....
anybody gt anything to suggest to do for me??
instead of "lepak" here "lepak" there...

gtg..
will post something later...
walau..
hungry la..
havent had dinner..
lolx..
bye~

halo..

wazup everyone..
now still at d house..
but using different computer...
lolx...
haizz...
damn boring lo..
if is not always computer...
then dunno wat to do ad..
haizzz...
now uploading pictures into facebook..
go see la...
i always so ugly wan..
*ugly*!!!
haizz....
ei..
u all when online wan..
i damn boring leh..
gt time chat wif me lo..
but sometimes i also busy..
then paiseh lo...
hehe...

haizzzzz..
i really damn boring lo...
tv also sot sot wan..
so cannot watch..
walau..
very sweaty leh..
panas!!
panas!!!!!
HAIZZZ........
wish now can go drink justea...
afterwad i ask la..

yes!!
finally upload finish ad...
yahooo!!
i gtg..
bye..



-CoolTomboy=P

short and simple...

wazup everybody..
now at penang...
using my couzin's laptop...
haizz.....
very sien ah....
i go watch movie la..
bye~




-CoolTomboy=P

从新开始..

What's up dudes..
that's right..
i just change my blog..
nice anot?
the description i simply write one..
hope don't mind..
but i mind if u say my blog nice one..
so need 'puji' ah..
hehehe..

首先，我想祝大家新年快乐!!
年年有余， 身体健康，天天快乐 and a lot la....
tonight i go "lou shang"
(dunno how to write..)
but good lo.. can find my beloved cousin sister..
but nowaday.. she don't choi me..
haizz...

happy valentine's!!!
again..

haizzz...
really damn boring..
haizz...
nobody to chat with..
haizzz...
still gt exam leh..
i haven't revise...
haizz.....
gt nothing to do now except write blog..
haizz...
gt nothing to write...
i don't have mood to write about XXX ad..
haizzz....
i need go to penang this monday..
haizz...
maybe there gt no computer..
haizzz...
even if gt computer, mayb no internet...
haizz....
cannot even go to cyber cafe...
haizz...
need offline ad...
haizz....
bye..



-CoolTomboy =P

damn boring~

so damn boring man..
at MSN nobody to chat with...
can somebody online??
so damn boring...
i need to update my blog with something..
but what can i do??
any suggestions??
haizz..
nvm la..
let me think by myself..



CoolTomboy=p

V-Day!!!

Valentine's day is just around the corner..
lucky lo those who gt bf or gf..
me??
~lonely.. i'm mister lonely~ i got nobody~
hahax..
haizz...
every year..
i always hope these days come quickly: holiday, no school day, Chirstmas, chinese new year, n valentine's..
no la..
actually valentine's no..
haizz...
i'm so poor..
aiya don't say about this ad..




Hapi New ChinEse Year!!!!
~happy happy CNY happy happy you and i~




bye!!!

wow.. nvr believe it could happen..

hey..
wazup..
today..
is ok ok lo..
guess who did i chat with???
some boy who is such a sissy.. (kidding)
no la..
i juz never thought of knowing him through MSN..
i know him since std 4..
i think..
i never even talk to him b4..
walau
sometimes i juz saw that he speaks alot..
sometime very "xiao qi"...
sry..
sometimes.......
too quiet!!!!
oi, u cannot tahan wan meh??
haha..
juz chat wif him on MSN..
he hav quite a sense of humor..
haha..
juz gt kena from him...
but now i still laugh.
why i so stupid???
hahaha..
well gtg..
if he gt time than keep chat wif him lo..



*atention!!! do not think that i like him!!! don't simply think, ok??? thx!!!




-CoolTomboy =P

that's the truth..

the truth is..

not only her blow away my secrets..

a lot of ppl did..

i think i wil forgive them infront of them..

but in my heart..

they shouldn't be forgiven..

some of them i dunno they gt blow anot..

but what they did they know themselves..

how about me??

i could't believe it..

i help her chase her dream and now she got her dream..

what about me??

she could chase her dream by just telling the truth..

i couldn't..

she knows her dream boy and could talk to him everyday..

i couldn't..

i don't even know what could i do..

she(T) and her dream boy(Y) thank me for makinh them together..

they said they could help me just like i help them..

but they couldn't..

nobody knows my dream boy..

even if somebody knows him..

its hard to chase..

he hates me..

he doesn't knows me..

he looks at me as if he hates me..

he....

aiya..

the most important thing is he hates me!!!

i could not one day cannot see him wan..

so bad...

i would like to forget him for about a few years..

but..

i'm scared if something happens..

why can't i just forget him???