One of my worst weekz... *sob*

What's up?
haiz..
going to tell you what happened the whole week...
no JOY..
no Laughter..
just emo-ness , moody-ness and stupid-ness...

MONDAY 9 of August ::
came to school...
havent wake-up..
still very blur-blur...
then when Jia Ann came..
i saw her new blue bag..
then i found the pictures a little familiar..
but i didnt very "zhu yi"
then when i go back to my seat..
she took her back from her table and said
"you see.."
OMG...
snoopy~~~
so damn cute...
but i not very "ji dong" lor...

TUESDAY 10 of August ::
exam exam xamm...
can't get rid of exam...
after a month or more..
FREEDOM!!!
wohoo!!!

WEDNESDAY 11 of August ::
i thought that something great would happen..
but then..
haizz....
it happened so fast..
and i can't stop it..
it all started when 3 boys were talking..
suddenly they talk about me...
then they talk about somebody that likes me..
then they call me..
i was still blur-blur..
they said
"hey, don't you think J likes you?"
wth..
actually many ppl told me that before..
i was damn annoyed...
then another girl joined...
then they just keep saying..
and they maked the situation more complicated..
i was so pissed...
then it was tuition..
at least Hong Ray's pesentation entertained me..
[it was damn funny!]
when going to gate
HE came..
we talked..
i thought that maybe i could forgive them..
but..
i still blur-blur..

THURSDAY 12 of August...
again..
it was all out of sudden..
it was unexpectable...
YOU cheated me..

YOU betrayed me...
why???
Z..
once someone i trust..
before..
when i found out that someone betrayed me..
it was between N and Z..
i knew it wasn't Z...
and it really was N..
but now..
they are the same...
Z really did betrayed me..
not only betrayed me..
Z was infront of me....
why was i that damn stupid?
why did i tell them?
why can't i stop Z?
i know Z and the Listener very close..
Listener said he/she knew it coz N tell he/she before..
but i keep denying it
i said it was just fake
FAKE!!
i still cannot imagine...
Z
told it....

that night..
i tried to forgive..
but..
the older i get..
the harder i tried to forgive people...
i really was mad..
and i get moodier after every secondthinking about what happened...

FRIDAY 13 of August..
nightmares happen..
it was raining..
i always thought that...
rain was a sign of romance...
[blek..]
i love rain...
it makes me look at the sky always..
it lets me listen to every single rain drop..
but...
haizz..

放学了。。
周末了。。
但还不是很开心。。
我到第3出口。。
就眼看见你了。。
我站的地方。。
只离你几个脚步。。
好就我们没那么靠近了。。
但。。
我看见你一直和他＂眼神交流＂
一直和他说话。。
我不知道为什么
会。。
心痛。。
好久没被你hurt我的心了。。
现在呢？
我一直以为我放下了。。
我够了。。
我不管你了。。
但是。。
我还很担心你。。。
我还放不下。。。
为什么？？？
haizz
i know you got her ad..
so i wouldnt want you..
but i just can't forget you...
i'll try..

i need to tell..
i need to scream out loud..
i need to say it!!!
but nobody to listen..
or maybe is i won''t say..
= =

bye...