bad mood.. bad mood!!!!!

wazup ppl..
today actually started "happily"
then..
came that damn monster...
and make me tear into tears....
damn that cruel thing....
actually not only one monster..
there were many of them..
they make me suffer...
i hate them...

today i actually wanna type chinese and tell you all all about wat i wanna type last week...
but..
becouz of them...
those danm ppl!!!!
i cannot tahan ad..
i need to do somthing
but wat??/
so sorry...
i will type the things i should with chinese next time...
ok??
sorry....

today..
one traitor has shown his real person...
again..
i cannot trust him...
i could never trust him...
haiz....

i really no mood do things ad...
mayb this could help me becoming my new me...
haizz....
mayb i will really cry tonight..
mayb my eyes will sore like last time..
[it really hurts..]
mayb someone will care about me...
i wish...
that will never happen...
damn it..

other thing i cannot type in english...
will type in chinese if gt time...
bye...

'no mood-ing" out...
-CoolTomboy =P

damn fast!!

What's up everybody..
now i'm typing so fast that i dunno what u type..
lolx..
lame...
FYI, i cannot online for dunno how long..
maybe after exam..
and i can online till crazy!!
woohoo~
to everybody: if wanna chat with me.. i'll be online for maybe everyday.. during 4:30 till 6:30.. (maybe) or 9:00pm till 11:00 (maybe)
but very sorry lo if that time i busy..
i gt so many things to tell you (my beloved & loyalty readers)
but..
rush la..
i've only gt 30 minutes to type but it feels like 30 seconds.!!!
my fingers are so damn fast and tired..
why??
coz of stupid piano class..
coz just came back juz now..
damn stupid piano class....

i need to ask something...
is it really bad sitting with ChongYuanSing?? (not sure spelling)
i dunno why ppl say it sucks..
but its just nothing so bad about it..
when i was changing places, everybody was like:"LeRan, u must tahan him arhh.."
and nobody thank me..
i sacrifice myself sitting with him..
btw, i didnt even wanna sit back of the damn KaiYin..
[i'm not scared writing her name in my blog, coz if i don't.. i will be so damn mad about her..]

that damn girl..
i ad giv her a chance to make up ad...
but she still act like usual..
but not usual..
even worse..
wat the hell...
so that's why i decided that..
it's time to change my life..
sit with a person everybody hates..
and become new identity..

i've gotta way to make ppl hate me..
hate them..
its that simple..
if u wanna be alone..
hate people..
and they will never giv u trouble..
muahahax..
[siao..]

i've think a whole lotta thing to write in my blog..
but damn it..
i've run out of time..
so..
what can i do??
haizz....

i cannot write anymore..
if i write the wan i think d..
gt not much time to write finish..
ntg to say ad..
juz call the damn GUEST to get the hell out of my blog..

peace out [fast]

-CoolTomboy =P
3:51pm
06/03

last day of old me..

What's up dudes...
today is the last day i be the old identity..
thnx to the party at Redbox..
i feel happy..
but the happiness is only at there..
when i was away from my friends..
back to my moody life..
haizz...
at least i could be happy on my last day of "old identity"

during party..
was awesome..
we sing like crazy..
we eat like crazy..
[no lar..]
but he had fun..
i think none of them know that it was the last day of "happy ol' me"
haizz..
at least i got a new hobby..
singing..
maybe..
but i'm not sure...
before the party..
i sing only when i hear my MP3 in my room alone..
i always kept my voice soft..
i wouldn't want anybody to know that i could sing [terribly]
but this time..
no more "singing alone"
i get to sing using microphone..
it may be normal to you all..
but it's the first time of me..
i feel quite free in there..
and of course sikit sikit cold..
brrr....
no lar...

i think of my past..
people say that i am cheerful and happy-go-lucky..
but then..
when i think again..
am i?
i'm just a loser living with a none-caring family...
well..
not exactly none-caring..
but something like that..
it's hard to explain..
sometimes..
i feel like i didnt even exist in this world..
no body cares about me..
if they did, sometimes its fake..
pity me lar..
do u know how poor am i???

i dream the dreams that will never be ture..
i wish somthing that will never be true..
every fairytale has a happy ending..
but,
when is mine??

whenever i saw XXX..
i hide..
whenever he sees me..
i blush...
but why???
they say coz i like him.
but u think i wanna like him??
u think i duwanna forget him???

i saw many people having good lifes..
and of course..
i am a little envy them..
i am thinking..
how can't i have the good life of them??

things are about to change after tomorrow..
so better watch out..
haizz..
i feel like typing for only me to see..
nobody comes to my blog..
haizzz..
i cannot online for nex week..
gonna damn miss my blog..
[muackzz]
bye dear blog..
peace out

-CoolTomboy=P
5:53pm
28/02

i'm so damn quiet..

hey wazup..
such a damn day today..
i'm now should be how i am..
the 'new' identity..
but when i at msn..
i still say alot..
lolz..
"be tahan" mar..
still need changing..
haizz..
wat can do??

2moro is the day..
the last day for me to change..
become somebody..
and,
tomoro oso go KaiYin d party @ redbox..
i dunno why i so damn nervous..
mayb coz is d 1st time i go there..
so damn nervous lo..
dunno wat will happen..
of course i will bring my "out-dated" camera..
[not mine actually]
and will be a crazy photographer..
[that is the greatest part---take picture whole day!!]
not whole day la..
juz for 3 hours..

haizz..
i dunno why my damn cool blog so quiet...
dunno the damn GUEST mati ad anot..
need full support my blog if can!!!
always see!!
my blog is the best!!!

peace out...

-CoolTomboy =P
5:37pm
27/02

get the **** outta my life!!!

i don't who you are!!
i don't wanna know who are you!!
you think you hide your identity and its fun??
you think just one stupid name and you are "soo" mysterious??
well..
go get you fking brain have a brain wash!!
don't think you are mysterious and i will keep think "who is the GUEST?"
well..
keep dreaming on it!!
i don't care who the hell you are..
but don't challenge me..
you pissed me up coz i'm in a bad mood!!
and u wil pay for it!!
if i know you..
you will be chop into pieces just like butter!!
i think i'm sure that i could be the other identity..
every day bad mood..
maybe i could start right now!!
but i don't want to..
i'll start during monday..
watch out for me!!
cool tomboy aka bad mood..
actually it isn't just only that fking GUEST's fault..
i've already sick of this stupid life!!
everybody is so damn fake..
nobody is real..
even if you are..
then sorry i say at you..
even if i had a bad mood..
i will still treat you good sometimes...
see who you are lo..
if u had a good impression in my brain..
then i will treat you better...
tonight cannot online..
damn angry..
haizz..
fine loh..
bad mood & peace out...

-CoolTomboy=P
5:47pm
26/02

我。。
应该做的事。。
还没做完。。
我。。
不知道应不应该做。。
你们知道我要做什么吗？
我要有一个新的身份。。以前的身份是：开开心心；每天都笑；开朗；很爱说话等。。新的身份是：冷漠；不爱说话等。。
可是。。我能变到这样吗？

i wanna change becoz..
i think my "happy go lucky" style makes me feel..
not like a tomboy..
and if i cannot be a tomboy..
i can't even be a cool tomboy..
this suckx....

that day.. (tuesday)
i was so damn nervous of the exam..
i only last minute read...
i was so damn crazy that time..
but then..
i remember i gt a thing to make me feel better...
i pick up the phone and dialled to Joey's house..
after a little chat..
i feel better...
then i found out..
i can't live without friends..


i gtg..
juz now chat with 2 friends..
lol..
gotta peace out..

-CoolTomboy =P
11:10pm
Thursday, 25/2

i dunno why..

我不知道为什么。。
我一直观察你。。
我不知道为什么。。
我一直看你。。
我不知道为什么。。
我一直了解你。。
我很像越来越不怕你。。
以前。。
我都是躲避你。。
现在。。
我不躲了。。
之从我们［不能说］后。。
我开始注意你了。。
我不知道。。
我有没有喜欢你。。
可是放心。。
我会死心的。。

damn miss my beloved blog~

What's up people!!
the tomboy is in the house..
thnx for still visiting my blog until now..
arigatou..
xie xie..
terima kasih..
to jie sai..
gracias..
(play play only.. hope don't mind)
haizz...

我偏不要和他有缘。。
可是神又偏偏要给我和他有缘。。
也不是说＂缘分＂啦。。
是。。
很像每次都看到XXX。。
可是。。
最近很像很少看见他了。。
不知道应该要开心还是伤心。。
开心：因为我不用看见他了。。
伤心：因为有点不习惯。。

next post~

my face is missing.. not missing, hiding..

damn it..
where in the damn world is my face??
i gt no face to go school see people ad..
all is penipu, or not is XXX..
or not is all the ppl who say me like him..
arghhh!!!
wait, i think i found my face..
lolxx..
kidding..
it's still hiding..
haizz..
why all this damn people cannot shut up wan..
always say me..
nobody to say meh??
now i'm really pissed up..
gtg..

peace out (and oso angry..)

-CoolTomboy =P

can i keep on moving??

wazup people..
me now stinks..
why??
coz now is 11:11 in the night and i havent bath..
why??
all becoz of my beloved blog~
=3=

there is a problem now..
i don't think i can face all the people who lied to me..
can i keep moving on??
everytime i see their faces..
its like they are gonna cheat me agin if i believe them again..
i'm like..
falling down from the hill..
or falling down from the edge..
being left out from the crowd..
and nobody to..
to..
i dunno how to say..
haizz..
well..
i should be use to this life..
coz that's my new life..
lonwly, useless, shadow, invinsible..
well..
that's me..
gtg..
bath..
lolx..
and some sleep with nightmares..
every night..
peace out..


-CoolTomboy =P

always busy...

wazup people...
i'm so busy lately...
busy until my homework now still haven't do finish..
it's not that i want to be busy..
but there is so many places to go to..
and i can't say no..
haizzz....

remember Y?
one of the person i said before that cheated me 2 or 3 times??
well i gotta ask something..
before i found out Y cheated me..
we agreed to go to her birthday gathering..
and i even bought the presents...
but..
now, since me and Y are having *cold war*(translate into chinese)
can i not go??
then what about my mom..
last time i beg her that i wanna go to the party..
but now,
if i said i duwan to go..
will my mom let me??
she'll mesti say why wan..
how??
haizz....
maybe i should be back frenz with her??
no way man..
if i go there...
i'll be like strangers with her..
haizz...
head-ache...

i don't wan to mention her ad..
what a jerk..
thinking what she had done to me..
i really hate her..
this year,
i hate a lot of people..
haizz...
gtg..
i wanna check my email n go youtube..
even if i gt time..
afterwad still need go out for another dinner..
peace out..



-CoolTomboy =P

2nd zzz....

wazup people..
zzzzzzzzz...
this time not sleep...
is boring until sleep...
dunno what to write lo..
but i know afterwad i'm gonna bath and watch AMERICAN IDOL- (season 9)
damn nice to watch..
but the new judge-- ellen de???? (dunno wat damn name)
very damn lousy..
haizzz..
still damn bornig..
wth..
i can't get the damn XXX out of my damn mind..
haizz...
i admit i still haven't forget XXX..
he is damn unforgetable..
uh-oh..
i gtg..
*total 7 damn..*


bye..

-CoolTomboy =P

zzzzz.....

wazup people..
zzzzz...
blog is now damn quite..
why??
coz nobody come..
gt people come la..
but not the number i expect..
haizz...
must fully support my blog!!~
very boring is it??
but what can do??
i'm a boring person..
zzzzzzz....
just came back from sleep just now..
*yawn*...
so good..
just now sleep in air-cond room..
hehehe..
>.<
anybody can suggest me to go what website listen song..
and dowload song??
pls la...
i need go ad..
bye~


-CoolTomboy =p

long day..

wazup..
today came back from Bkt. Tambun..
long day...
walau..
damn tired..
but stil need to sacrificed for my damn cool blog..
muahahaxx..
lolz..

回到Selangor时， 刚好来到SS2所以去老家看一看
然后又看到我小时候的babysitter---- Aunty Lian Xiang & lao gong Uncle Peacock..
so damn happy!!
已经几年了没见到他们。。
说以前他做饼干时，烫到我的脚。。
妈妈带我看医院。。
我想：有meh？
应该是记错吧。。
进到家里时。。
我感到很。。
感动？
因为。。
他们还收着我小时候的照片。。
他们的女儿还说。。。
他们每次都会讲到我。。
说很想看见我。。
想知道我还好吗。。
糟了。。
我流了泪水。。
我是说现在。。
那时我也有哭。。
不要笑！！
我是太感动了。。。
那时，我真的无法控制我自己。。
真丢脸。。
他们说我小时候很cute。。
很乖的。。
（不要说我自恋，是他们说的）
我每当看见那张照片。。
我都很想哭。。
我现在都流了眼泪。。

我无法想象。。
如果世界上。。
失去了他们。。。
就想失去了家人一样。。
很伤心。。
我一想到这件事。。
我的双眼都红了。。
我知道你们会说。。
＂只不过两个叔叔和阿姨而已吗。。 有什么大不了？＂
但是。。
你们不知道。。
他们是多么疼爱我的。。

i need go wash face ad..
peace out..


-CoolTomboy =P

problems..

whenever i think of XXX..
i can go fb n see his pic..
lolx..
XXX is still cute..
but i will never fall for that..
days of hiding from him is enough..
i need to face on my difficulties..
but can that solve my other problems from forgetting him??
i know it's confusing..
but i cannot just leave the problem there..
even if i wanna solve the problem..
i can't even stop all those gossips that says:"li le ran like XXX"
i don't get it..
why so 38??
why always say me??
go say someone la..
why say about other people??
say yourself la..

main thing is..
who can i really trust now??
my friends say i should give the ones who cheated me a chance..
now i ask you..
should i give them??
Y, one of the people who cheated me..
has cheated me 2 or 3 times..
the 1st time i forgive her..
but then she was more mad..
insane..
omg..
she thinks she is "superwoman" or something...
gossip her gossip there..
walau...
should i give her a chance again??
no way!!!
enough is enough..
she didn't even admit she was wrong..
what a jerk..

haizzz..
i wish someone can save me from this problems better than giving me stupid advise...
*sry*

gtg..


-CoolTomboy =P